Apr 26

DECEPTIVE INNOCENCE $1.99 ebook sale!!!

Surprise! The 1st book in the PURE SIN series, DECEPTIVE INNOCENCE is on sale for $1.99! I don’t know how long the sale is going to last but in celebration I’m posting an extended…er…NC-17 excerpt from the book below. Enjoy!:

deceptive innocenceLander was wise enough not to take his limo into that part of Harlem, so we’ve caught a cab. We’re sitting only a few feet away from each other, not talking, not touching, just . . . thinking.

I’m fiddling with my garnet ring, trying to lay out a plan for the evening. I’ve never had sex with a man for any reason other than the satisfaction of my own desire, but I’m ready to make the sacrifice for the sake of my cause. I’ve prepared myself for that.

So sleeping with the enemy isn’t a problem . . . but wanting to sleep with the enemy is.

That’s something I’m not prepared for at all. Over the last few days his self-possession, quiet intelligence, and savagery have been wearing on my defenses. Like the effect of waves against a cliff, the erosion isn’t immediately devastating but it’s noticeable.

He reaches over and touches my leg, his eyes still on the window. His fingers move up and down, his caress al- most casual . . . almost. But there’s a soft rhythm to his movement as his fingers rise a little higher, pushing my hem up ever so slightly, then sliding down again to my knee. It’s not demanding or insistent. Just confident. Confident in what he’s allowed and what boundaries he’s able to push.

Being touched by this man, this man who represents so many things that I hate . . . it should be awful.

It isn’t.

His hand goes a little higher. He’s touching my inner thigh now, just barely, but still, I shudder. e in- voluntary reaction makes me blush and I quickly look away.

No, this isn’t supposed to be happening at all.

When the cab drops us off at his Upper East Side building, he greets the doorman with a word and leads me to the rear of the lobby, his hand on the small of my back.

“Cool digs,” I say as he pulls me onto the elevator. When I turn, I more fully take in the lush entry area, its crown molding, its expensive furniture, its little touches of decadence.

“It could be worse,” he admits, sticking his key into the slot that will allow us to get to his penthouse. The doors close and he turns to me. “Do you like elevators, Bell?” He steps forward, into my space. Instinctively I step back, but that only serves to bring me up against the wall. His lips touch mine so gently it’s practically a caress, nearly innocent.

And yet.

I feel his hands move up to my waist as his mouth quietly, softly moves down to my chin, my neck . . .

“The doors could open at any moment,” I say. I try to add a little laugh, but the sound comes out as a staccato breath.

“Yes,” he says, “they could.”

He leans into me, and his body is different than I thought it would be—harder, stronger.

He doesn’t know who I really am; he can’t.

His hands are on my hips, and the hem of my dress inches up as his grip becomes firmer, more demanding.

I’m going to destroy him. I’ll bring down his entire family.

His lips rise to my ear, his tongue finding my most sensitive spots there.

This is a sacrifice—it’s supposed to be a sacrifice . . .

.. . but that’s not what it feels like.

I close my eyes just as the elevator slows to a stop. He pulls away, but only a little. “Welcome to my home.”

Slowly I open my eyes again and step into his penthouse. The art pieces on the wall are originals, mostly by artists I don’t know . . . except for the charcoal nude rendered by Degas.

This man owns a Degas.

I don’t comment on it. Instead I just continue down the hall past the kitchen, the home office, into what serves as a living room.

One wall is lined with books, the other with windows. In the corner is a small bar, stocked with expensive bottles that look as decorative as they do sinful.

“You have a view of Central Park.” I step up to the wall of glass and stare down at the dimly lit landscape. I can feel his eyes on me . . . It’s almost like he’s touching me.

This man is my enemy.

“iIf I lived your life I would go to all the fancy par- ties,” I say lightly. “I bet you get invited to all sorts of red-carpet affairs. I bet you could be in a tux every night of the week if you wanted to be.”

“No man wants to be in a tux every night.” He pauses, leans back on his heels. “I’d like to guess your name now.”

“Oh?” I flash him a bright, playful smile. “You think you can?”

“Yes,” he says quietly. “I think I can, Bellona.”

My breath catches. I feel a knot in my stomach. Of course, it’s not my birth name—he doesn’t know that.  But it isn’t information I’ve given him either. “How did you know?”

“I’ll tell you tomorrow . . . in the morning.” He comes to my side, reaches up, pushes my hair behind my shoulders. “Tonight I want to know if you’re like your namesake. Are you a goddess of war?”

“I’m not a goddess,” I say quietly.

“And yet I bet you’d hold your own on a battle- field.” His fingers slide down my neck. I expect him to lean in for a kiss again, but he doesn’t. Instead he just lets his fingers go to the scooped neckline of my dress, tracing it lightly, watching me. When his fingers move lower, over my dress, over the curve of my breast, I look away.

“No, no, warrior,” he whispers, taking his other hand and turning my face back to him. “Keep your eyes on me. I want you to see me seeing you. I want you to look into my eyes when I touch you.”

Part of me wants to say no. I hadn’t planned for this level of intimacy. I don’t know how to handle it.

But this is the path I’ve chosen. It’s a path that can lead me to my revenge. And without revenge I have nothing. My whole life will be nothing.

His fingers continue to caress, running up and down my breasts. I feel my nipples harden. The fabric of my dress is thick enough to conceal them and yet as he looks down at me I’m sure he knows. It’s in his smile, in the mischievous glint in his eyes.

His hands move lower, over my stomach, lower to the hem of my dress, then just below it, forcing his hand between my legs as I lean my back against the window, suddenly needing support. e glass is so clean it looks like I’m leaning against air itself, as if I’m on the verge of falling.

Maybe I am.

Slowly he raises his hand, raising my dress again as he does. e feeling of his palm against the inside of my leg makes me squirm, but as instructed I keep my eyes on his, watching him watching me.

“Do you know what I’m going to do next, Bellona?” I nod.

“Tell me.”

“You’re going to move your hand up . . . to my thong.”

“And when I touch your thong, will it be wet?”

My heart is beating at an uncomfortable pace. “Yes,” I whisper.

His hand goes up, touches my panties, moving back and forth. It’s such a thin strip of fabric, no protection at all, really.

“Ah,” he says with a smile, “an honest woman.”

The irony should make me laugh.

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Apr 13

Casting Ideas For My Literary Clique

Can you see these women playing these roles?


Sophie Katz (of the SEX, MURDER & DOUBLE LATTE series): Journee Smollett-Bell

April Silverperson (of SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING): Ashley Madekwe

Kasie Fitzgerald (of JUST ONE NIGHT & JUST ONCE MORE): Olivia Wilde

Bellona Dantes…or so she claims (of the PURE SIN series): Naya Rivera

Mercy Raye…aka Melody Fitzgerald (of JUST ONE LIE): Mila Kunis (can she sing?)





Apr 12

A Moment of Wisdom…

….Brought To You By Sophie Katz.



Apr 10

What It’s Supposed To Feel Like To Breathe

When I was a kid my father came up to visit me in the little beach town my mom and I were living in at the time. He lived in L.A. I remember watching him jog up and down our street in his Gold’s Gym sweatshirt as he went on and on about how great it was to breathe clean air. He couldn’t get over it. Before then it had never occurred to me that breathing would feel different depending on the air quality. I thought about what it must be like to be raised in something toxic and then suddenly be introduced to something clean.

That’s what inspired me to write the scene between Mercy and Brad in JUST ONE LIE when she’s explaining to him how, after a life time of criticism and utter rejection from her family, it felt to perform her music in front of an audience for the first time:

“I could feel the…the approval and the love of that audience. It was actually tangible. I mean…okay, you don’t always know when you’re breathing in smog, right?

“I guess not,” he says, clearly thrown by the seeming non sequitur.

“Trust me, you don’t–otherwise everyone in LA would be gagging every five minutes. But when you breathe in the air at the beach it just feels cleaner and you do notice that. It’s like all of a sudden you realize, oh, this is what it’s supposed to feel like to breath.”



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Mar 22


It should go without saying that my heart goes out to Belgium today as it went out to Turkey a few days ago and as it goes out to the people of Syria, South Sudan, Iraq and Nigeria every single day. It’s extraordinarily depressing how much longer I could make that list. And it does scare me when I think about my son growing up in a world filled with so much conflict and violence.

I have to remind myself that we all focus on the events that are the most shocking rather than those that are most pervasive. The reason we’re going to spend days, maybe weeks, talking about the dozens of innocents who were killed in Brussels while not sparing a minute on the thousands who have been killed in South Sudan over the last two years is because both Sudan and South Sudan have been plagued by violence for such a long time we’ve become numb to it while Belgium has been a place of relative peace and security since the end of WWII. The lives of the Belgians are no more valuable than the lives of the Sudanese and obviously what’s happening in Sudan deserves A LOT more media coverage than it’s been getting. But seeing an attack on an area we’ve come to think of as one of our safe places, a land that has been a sanctuary for others fleeing violence elsewhere, is a shock to the system and deserves attention and examination. It’s a new loss to morn.



We should also remember that while a little over 3000 people have died from terrorist attacks inside the US between 2001 and now, over 400,000 have died from the use of firearms in the U.S. (non-terrorist related) and almost 4 million have died in traffic accidents all in that same period. I point this out because I think at times like these we tend to become the most fearful of the smallest risks. To quote one of my favorite books, Sharp Teeth by Toby Barlow, “the bullet your running from is never the one that hits you.”

Fear divorced from rationalism is a huge threat to all of us. Yes, what happened in Brussels is horrific and scary as is what happened in San Bernardino and Turkey and Paris. Security measures and a calculated response are both necessary. But if we spend our lives being wary of every Middle-Eastern looking stranger as if he/she is a possible enemy operative, as if this person is more likely to be a threat to you than the guy who barely missed you while doing an illegal left turn in his SUV, we are bound to make poor decisions, screw up our priorities and foster an atmosphere of hate an paranoia.

Lastly I want to point out how much good is still in the world. It doesn’t get reported but everywhere I look I see people extending kindness to strangers. If you were to count up all the times a stranger has opened a door for you, helped you retrieve something you dropped or left behind, asked you if you needed help when you looked hurt or confused, stopped so you could pet their dog or offered you directions when you needed it you’d come up with a much bigger number than you would if you were counting up all the slights you’ve endured from random jerks. Considering all our differences and divisions I think that in and of itself is a little miraculous.

So thoughts and prayers today for the people of Brussels. Stand strong and don’t let those who are fueled by hate take away the things that make you so amazing or push you to compromise your principals. It can be a scary world, but it’s mostly wonderful.

Feb 15

Robert’s Valentine to Kasie (JUST ONE NIGHT)


Dear Kasie,

It’s Valentine’s Day. It seems fitting that you and I should celebrate a holiday marked by saints and sinners, violence and love. And you know I would never give you anything as mundane as a Hallmark card or a heart shaped box of chocolates. You and I will never be confined by convention.

The moment I laid eyes on you I saw everything you had been trying to hide; the strength, the fierce intellect, the thinly suppressed ambition and a thirst for the forbidden…a thirst for me. I didn’t just want to make you my girlfriend. What I needed was to make you my Queen. I wanted the two of us to rule the world of industry and finance. I wanted us to pull the strings of all the would-be power players and dominate every enterprise we touched. Those people who surrounded you back then, the ones who attempted to hold you back and force you to submit to their demeaning expectations, they disgust me. Crushing them was a pleasure.

And yet, while in my pursuit of you, it never occurred to me how astonishing and overwhelmingly wonderful it would be to have you. I don’t think I understood the beauty of tenderness before you slipped your hand into mine. The first time I ever felt peace was the day I first heard your laugh. And when you lie beneath me, your legs wrapped around my hips, your shallow breaths tickling my ear as you lose your last vestige of control, I don’t just feel heat, I feel the warmth.

I feel love.

I know there have been times when I have pushed you too far. I know I have gone to extremes in my efforts to protect you from those who mean you harm. You tell me you can fight your own battles but Kasie, that’s as misguided as my ill-conceived attempts to fight them for you. From this moment on we will fight together. Together we are a force too strong for defeat. Together we can enhance one another’s strengths and explore the sensuality of our own hidden vulnerabilities.

You are my Valentine, my Queen. Above all, you are my love.

One day soon, you will be my wife.

–Robert Dade


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